Vanitas is the most personal project I’ve created so far.
This album explores my perception of death and the solitude that surrounds it. Rather than focusing on a single emotion, it moves through different states of mind: anger, despair, reflection, resistance, and eventually a form of acceptance.
Each track represents a moment within that journey. Together, they form a narrative about confronting something every human being must face sooner or later.
This isn’t an album built around a concept for the sake of storytelling. It comes from genuine thoughts and emotions that surfaced during the creation process.
Exploring the Many Faces of Mortality
Death is rarely perceived through a single emotion. It can provoke rage, fear, reflection, or even moments of calm. Vanitas moves through these different psychological states, giving each track a distinct atmosphere.
Some pieces are intense and aggressive, others quiet and introspective. The sound design shifts between phonk-inspired rhythms, darker ambient textures, and more experimental structures.
The goal was not to create something polished or predictable, but something honest.
The Story Behind the Tracks
Each track represents a chapter in this exploration of mortality.
Rage
A violent outburst against the idea of death. Raw energy and aggression dominate the track, capturing the instinctive refusal to accept the inevitable.
Umbrae Interius
Latin chants and dark phonk elements reflect the shadows that exist within us all, the inner demons that grow louder when confronting mortality.
Snow
A cold and distant moment of stillness. The world feels frozen, detached from emotion.
Broken Pulse
Life begins to fracture. The rhythm feels unstable, echoing a body or mind slowly losing its balance.
Well of Despair
A descent into hopelessness. Everything feels heavy, like falling deeper into something impossible to escape.
Threatening
The presence of death becomes more tangible here. The atmosphere carries tension without exploding into aggression.
Not Dead Yet
A moment of defiance. Despite exhaustion and doubt, the fight against the inevitable continues.
Moody
Emotions fluctuate between darkness and clarity. The track reflects the instability of confronting one’s own existence.
Lonely
Perhaps the most chilling realization: the possibility of facing the end completely alone.
Mortality
A moment of reflection. The music becomes more contemplative, acknowledging the fragile nature of life.
Silent Exit
The final chapter. Instruments gradually disappear until nothing remains but silence.
More Than an Album
Vanitas is not just a collection of tracks.
It’s a reflection of personal fears, questions, and emotions surrounding mortality. Music has always been a way for me to process thoughts that are difficult to express in words, and this project pushed that further than anything I’ve done before.
Some tracks are uncomfortable. Some are quiet. Others are intense.
But together, they form an honest exploration of something universal.
Listening to Vanitas
If you decide to listen to Vanitas, I recommend experiencing it from beginning to end. The album was designed as a continuous emotional progression rather than a set of unrelated tracks.
And if something in it resonates with you, feel free to share your thoughts. Music like this exists to create a connection, even when the subject itself is about isolation.